There was a point in my life when I was full of shame and guilt as a direct result of the way I was living. I used to identify myself as a loser and a junkie. I believed in the judgment these words created. I was completely hopeless and didn’t think there was a way out.
Fortunately, God had other plans for me because today I no longer identify with these hurtful terms. Today, I am a person in long-term recovery, which means that I haven’t found the need to use a drink or a drug in five years. I have hope once again. Today, I am a daughter to my loving mother, who never gave up on me. I am a fiancée, a friend, and a trustworthy employee.
Recovery has given me so many blessings that I never thought were possible. On the day of my five-year anniversary, I ran 20 miles with a good friend in recovery in preparation for the Philadelphia Marathon. Afterwards, my fiancé and I went to look at houses with our realtor. While all of this was happening, I thought, “How is this my life?” When I was using, I accepted that I was going to be an addict forever and probably die that way. Today, all of the dreams I once had of being successful and having a family have been realized once again. In this process, I went back to school and am now enrolled in graduate school.
I am so amazed at how much I can accomplish when I put my mind to something. Recovery has taught me that anything is possible. One day at a time, one step at a time, I can and will accomplish my dreams.
I am so grateful to all of those who stuck by my side and didn’t give up on me, even after I had given up on myself. Every day is a new opportunity to learn and grow, and I do not take any of it for granted. I am so grateful to be on this journey and to have found this new way of life.